Oh My Left Eye!

Assalamualaikum.

what a hot and tiring day. keluar dari pukul 8am semata-mata nak settlekan medical checkup. it supposed to be sekejap je, since tak yah nak amik darah semua, but end up sampai petang. ke sana ke sini. I went to this one clinic, with Indian doctor. MBBS UM. whoaaaaa. memang respect gila ah. but, I'm not trying to be racist, tapi why must dia nak marah-marah and tak layan patient dia with well manner? mula-mula dia buat vision test, with that alphabet board kannn. baru second row of the alphabets, I dah tak boleh nampak apa-apa. and then, DANGGGG! dia terus marah-marah, macam ni gak ah ayat dia, "how can you don't see that letter??! where's your glasses?? why don't you wear your glasses?? go home and bring your glasses to me! or not I will put it as "FAIL" on your medical report! macam mana you nak sambung belajar?" hotak kauuu. rumah aku nun jauh dekat dengan KLIA, and sekarang ni aku kat Banting. rasa nak cakap camniii je. that glasses that I used to wear hanya untuk silau, since I don't think yang I ni rabun! and then, I pun macam try ah pujuk kot dia nak pass kan je report ni. tapi takmauuuuu gak. I said that I can see ALL things clearlyyyy! it's just something wrong with my left eye! kanan kan boleh nampak jelas lagiiiii. kenapa time nak masuk asasi dulu, doktor kat hospital tu buat lekkkk je. lastly he forced me to go to any optical store and buy a glasses yang harga RM10/20. and then dia suruh datang lagi jumpa dia and teruskan dengan vision test tu. sooo, dengan bengangnya, tarik my mom keluar, start engine, terus blah. sakit hati. tak boleh ke nak senyum or cakap baik-baik? atau dia sendiri yang racist? bengang gilaaa. nasib baik puasa!

And then, we went to this optical store. check punya check, memang optometrist tu kata I'm NOT suffering any short/long sightedness! hooyeahhh! but sadly dia pun tak dapat detect what's going on with my left eye. maybe sebab machine dia cuma boleh check any external problem. I mean, masalah rabun jeee. yelah, our eyes kan ada 3 main parts. cornea, lens and retina+nerve. so dia tolong buat refer letter about my left eye ke eye speacialist. nasib baik. haihhh

Then, sampai lah kat Top Vision Eye Specialist Centre, cool whoaa. swasta gak, tapi baikkk je. mula-mula buat test vision, and macam tadi gak, second row dah stuck.  lepastu terus jumpa this chinese doctor. hellooooo MBBS UM gak okay! MS Ophthal kat UM gak pulak tu! surgeon tuuu. siap boleh gurau-gurau lagi. terus dia check my left eye and first ayat dia "aiyaaaa sudah parut, kenapa tak datang awal". haha. mana lah kita tau parut segala bagai ni. harap je belajar biologi siap dapat A, tapi tak guna. actually benda ni dah bertahun lama. dalam form 1 camtu kot. maybe dulu bleeding, and now dah jadi scar. macular scar, somewhere dekat dengan nerve. dia ada snap gambar, tapi lupa nak mintak XD seram gak. memang nampak scar tu besar warna greyyy. susah sebenarnya rasa vision kita camni. everything seems blur, and then macam ada banyak grey spots yg block my sight. sebab tu tak boleh nak focus. then he said benda ni maybe terjadi sebab virus. mungkin dari kucing. what?? kucing? I never touched any cats. sobs sobs. macam mana boleh jadi pulaaa. tapi maybe benda lain kott. and I told him about my medical report, and dia macam kesiannn je. hihi. so dia bagi ubat mata and pills untuk hilangkan this scar. InsyaAllah boleh jadi normal balik. and ada lah appointment lagi dengan dia next month for further treatment. and dia tolong buat surat untuk doktor yg marah-marah tadi tu! camni -->

and then lepas dah bagi kat clinic tadi pun, assistant dia macam tak puas hati je, buat mukaa. eeeiiiii ingat lawa ke! kau tu bukan tau pape. doctor tu plak cakap "I asked you to bring your glasses, not this letter". lagi ahhh rasa macam nak memaki hamun time tu gakkk! lepastu dengan semangat yg masih ada, I said "I don't have any problem with my vision! ni semua sebab scarring. I don't need any glasses!!". lepastu dia senyum and terus proceed dengan checkup yg lain. hishhhhhhhh. YA ALLAH YA RABBI sabar je lahhhh. 

tapi the more I think about it, rasa macam ada hikmah gak semua ni. kalau tak jumpa specialist tu, tak mungkin I would know about this problem. hmmm. Hikmah bulan Ramadhan. yeah malam ni malam Ramadhan ke 21. jom kita cari malam Lailatulqadar sama-sama! :)